Thinking

I’ve done some thinking. Well, last night I was home drinking a bottle of wine and watching True Blood episodes to catch up for the start of season 3, and I did some thinking. Another Friday night, and I’m home by myself. Such is life, I suppose. Anyway, back to my thinking. So I’ve done some thinking. I’m not interested in dating the Cop. Yes, he’s fun. Yes, I have a great time hanging out with him. Yes, I think he’s pretty sexy in a goofy-yet-tough-guy kind of way. I just know that we wouldn’t work out. I want more attention than he’s willing to give. Yes, I know I need to work on my patience. And yes, I know that maybe I don’t need to rush into things. But, I also think that a guy should show more attention if he’s interested. I saw him Tuesday. The guy for me would have made more effort by Friday to at least talk to me. Now, I know that he had to work. And, he’s a cop, so I know he’s busy. I also know that there’s time for him to send me a text to say or to make plans for the next time we’re going to hang out. He’s more of a leave it til the last minute type dude. And that’s not the dude for me. The last 3 guys that I’ve dated since him were all more willing to give me more attention. I spoke to them everyday. ATC, the Marine and TB all made sure to contact me several times a day, every single day. So, I don’t think I’m expecting too much. I think there’s nothing wrong with liking guys who show that they like me and actually want to talk to me. I think that a guy has a duty to make sure I stay interested in him and don’t get sidetracked by new guys. And, the Cop doesn’t want to do that. Do I understand that the Cop is busy and can’t hang out? Of course. But, I just think we’re too different. He’s too much of a loner. I think we can be friends. He’s a good guy. And, we do have fun together. But I really don’t see a future there, so I’m going to cut off any thinking in my head that there’s a possibility of us dating. No sense in getting my hopes up or attached to a dude who is only going to frustrate the hell out of me.

In other news, I might have texted TB that I missed him. I blame the wine!! It was a momentary lapse in judgment, I know. But, it was a moment of weakness. And, I do miss him something fierce!!! But, I deleted his number so it will not happen again. There was no response, of course. I guess it makes it easier that he didn’t respond. At least he’s not stringing me along, right? Stupid wine and True Blood! No more!