Mr. Hottie Hot Hot

How does one date someone who is so incredibly sexy and good looking that one knows the person is out of their league? Hmm, I don’t know if I put that clearly. Let me try again. How can I date some really incredibly good looking dude who I know is way hotter than me? I’m used to dating very good looking guys. Most of the guys I’ve dated are very good looking. I can only think of a couple who were “average”. Of course, beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and what I find to be very good looking isn’t the typical Brad Pitt pretty-boy type. I tend to prefer a more gritty, Johnny Depp type hottie. I like the guy who has a scruffy face or unkempt hair. I like a guy who has oil on his hands cause he just got done working on his car. I like the guy who has a wicked farmers tan cause he was out working in the field or something like that. I like a guy who does some active job, not one who sits behind some desk every day. Not that those guys can’t be hot. They’re just not who I am usually attracted to. But, I think the good looking guys who I date are usually pretty evenly matched to me. I mean, I’m not conceited, but I think I’m fairly attractive. I’m not God’s gift or anything. But, I also don’t make small children run and hide. Well, one of my good buddies has a friend he wants to hook me up with. He told me to add his buddy on facebook so we could start chatting. I did and we have. He’s actually pretty cool. I admit, I was a little hesitant because, he is SUPER good looking. My sister says she thinks he’s just photogenic. I think he’s drop dead gorgeous. There’s a picture of him on facebook with no shirt and…holy cow!! I figured he’d be some lame guy who didn’t need girls to get past his looks. My buddy assured me that he was actually cool. So, we started emailing each other yesterday. Turns out, he is really cool. Totally down to earth and pretty funny. He’s a former Marine, who is now in the reserves and going back to school to finish his degree. Maybe he’s the type of guy I need to start thinking about. I’m tired of Marines. Don’t get me wrong, I’ll always love Marines. But, maybe me and the Marine Corps just weren’t meant to be. This guy is tough. But now he’s out and going to live a more normal life. Kind of cool. He’s currently doing some training thing in Virgina for another 3 weeks. It’s to get him some credentials which will then help him get a Federal job or something. I’m not entirely sure. But, he’s back in 3 weeks, and he wants to take me out. I feel like I need to start preparing now. 5 hours of gym a day and eating only 300 calories a day, combined with mass amounts of lounging by the pool to get tan. That’s my plan for getting ready. I think that sounds perfect! Seriously though, I’m kind of excited to meet him. He seems really nice. And, even though he’s so incredibly good looking, I don’t worry that he’ll end up playing me like I worried about Baby Marine. It would have been cool if Baby Marine was not the player I think he is, but I know in my heart I’m right. I don’t know. I mean, I’ll guess we’ll see what happens. He’s in the field for a week. Who knows if he’ll even call me when he gets back. But, if we do hang out again (I think I just heard my sister groan), it will be because he is coming out here and making the effort. My brother gave me a huge pep talk today about how I’m lowering myself to these loser guys because I’m not as self-confident as I should be. He said I need to realize that I just graduated from law school and how awesome that is and how these guys should be lucky to know me. He then said they treat me like crap to break me so then they feel like they can be more on my same level. It’s insecurity on their part, and I’m playing right into it. So, the next time a guy hurts me, I need to just say “screw him!” and walk away, knowing that I’m better than that. It’s so much easier to say when I’m happy and not suffering from current heartbreak. But, I know that he’s right, and I need to get that attitude. I am worth it. I know I am. Hopefully Mr. Hottie Hot Hot won’t break my heart so I won’t have to. Yes, I’m already picturing how nice he’ll look in our wedding pictures. Ok, maybe not. I’m not going to rush things. I’ll wait til after our first date to start planning the wedding.