pink Vespa

What is one supposed to do if one is approached online by a guy who may or may not be ok looking (like, there are only 2 pictures and you can’t really tell) and he may or may not be cool (like, you can’t tell if he’s funny or a know it all douchebag)? Does one answer his message and give him a chance and hope that he turns out to be cool? Or does one just hit “close”? I don’t know what to do. I texted the Comic to see his thoughts, since he’s big on online dating, but he said “go with your gut.” I told him that my gut says to fly to North Carolina, track down TB and convince him that he still loves me. So, obviously that’s bad advice. It turns out the Comic is just busy and doesn’t have time to analyze every little detail with me like he normally would. That means I’m left on my own with this decision. I suppose there’s no hurry in my deciding. I could put it off for a few days. But, the fact that I’m hesitant probably is my answer. I doubt he’s my soulmate if I’m hesitant to even talk to him. I’m talking to about 5 other guys online right now. There was no hesitation there. I have a date with one guy next week. And, I think a date with a second guy is in the works. The first guy seems pretty cool. He wants to hang out sometime next week. I told him I’m busy Wednesday and Thursday, but am good any other day. Wednesday I’m going to a shooting range with Ms. Adorable. And Thursday is the first official Girl’s Night with some of my girlfriends. There’s no way I’m canceling on my girlfriends for some random douchebag who I’ll probably never talk to again. I haven’t told TB that I have a date yet. I don’t think he’ll care. He says he doesn’t care that I date and he knows I’m going to. He doesn’t want to be with me, I get that. But, still, I feel weird telling him. I guess its cause I wouldn’t want to know if he was. I mean, I guess I’d have to eventually know if he was dating someone. But, if it was just a first date, I don’t think I’d want to know. It’d make me too sad. At least now it would. If I move on and find a nice guy, then I guess it’ll be different. I wonder if I’ll always think about him, and always think that it could have worked out? I wonder if I’ll always wish that it had worked out? Ms. Adorable tells me that when I meet the guy I’m supposed to be with that I’ll just know, and it’ll make me realize that I wasn’t supposed to be with any other guy. The thing is, that’s how I felt/still feel about TB. But, she says it’s still not the real thing, and I’ll realize it when it’s the right guy. Maybe my “just feel it” meter is broken.

In other news, today I saw the CUTEST thing!! I was driving home from work, and I saw this couple driving down the street. The dude was this biker guy on a Harley. The chick was this cute little girl in a purple sun dress riding alongside him on a pink Vespa. It was so cute!! They were just driving side by side down the street. Then, they were switching lanes, so he fell back and blocked the cars so she could safely get over in front. That’s what I want! A tough guy who’s still so thoughtful and sweet about the little things. It’s the things like that that really matters to me. I don’t care if a guy buys me presents. That stuff comes and goes, and is just easy. It’s the holding up traffic so you can be safe that is the sweet stuff. And, personally I think that I would be super cute on a purple Vespa alongside my motorcycle man.

date with surfer lawyer

I had a date last week with Surfer Lawyer. He emailed me last week after I got back from Puerto Rico asking if I wanted to get lunch on Thursday. I said sure. I picked a spot close to the courthouse, cause Veggie Girl suggested it to me. It was a real cool, artsy place. Surfer Lawyer was already there when I got there. He was sitting in the doorway, and noticed me right away. Apparently he eats lunch there all the time. I thought I was being original in suggesting this artsy place. But, he seemed pleased with my decision anyway. We sat and ate lunch. We chatted about all sorts of things, from the law to Puerto Rico to surfing and whatnot. It was fun. I wasn’t sensing any immediate sparks, but it was fun nonetheless. He wanted me to hang out on Saturday with him and his friends at the racetracks. Weezer was playing. I told him I couldn’t because I had to go to a bridal shower for Little Sister. Then he offered to take me and Veggie Girl apartment shopping on Sunday cause Veggie Girl was looking to move down south by his area. But, I couldn’t, cause I had to go to LA. But, it was cute he wanted to hang out this weekend, so I figured I’d give him another chance and see how it went. I emailed him when I got back to work, cause he said he wanted my “real” email address, since I’d only given him my work address. He responded right away. Then, that was the last time I heard from him. So weird!! Here he was begging me to hang out over the weekend, and then nothing?! I don’t get dudes at all! But, it makes me realize that I should have never given up my “no lawyers” rule. It’s funny, cause I wasn’t feeling him really, but the fact that he blew me off kind of pisses me off, and makes me want him to call. Yeah, that’s weird. I know.

I did something I maybe shouldn’t have done. And then I did something that I should have done. First, for the “I shouldn’t have”: I emailed The Captain. He’s back from the war, so I said that if he wanted to get a beer sometime, that’d be cool. I figure that we both acted pretty crappy last time. Maybe we’d both be better now. He wrote back right away that he would be down for a beer, but that he lives a little farther away now. But, I don’t think that’s a problem. I don’t mind driving a little farther. If he’s nicer, then he’s worth it.

As for the “I should have”: I re-signed up on Eharmony. I figure, what’s the harm? I’m still trying to meet someone in real life. I’m not going to put on blinders in my day to day life. But, I like online dating. I think it’s a great avenue for meeting people. A few guys have emailed me. I’ve declined most of them. I’m trying to be a little more open to different types of people. But, I don’t know if I can change what I’m physically attracted to. Like, I don’t like chubby guys. There’s a guy who seems nice and who is an “educator”, but he’s chubby. I haven’t decided whether I should respond to him or not. If I know I’m not going to be attracted to him, should I even bother? Or, is it time I give up worrying about attraction? I think that I’m not a superficial person, but I need to be attracted to a person!! I don’t think that’s wrong. I met The Captain on Eharmony. It’s like a complete circle. And at the very least, hopefully it’ll create some great stories to share with people. At best, it’ll lead to a happily ever after for me. Oh, and I found a promotional code which got me the service for only $9.95 a month, so no matter what happens, at least I’m not too much invested monetarily in this whole thing.

I’ve been talking to TB a lot lately. We’re just friends. He wants it that way. I don’t. I want us to be together. He thinks we don’t work together. I don’t understand that. He said he’s an enigma. I think he’s dumb. We talk all day everyday. We talk from morning til night. We get flirty with each other. We talk about everything. He may come out to California for my birthday. I think he’s just worried about being together cause he doesn’t know where his life is going to take him. If he re-enlists, he may try to transfer out to Pendleton. I hope he does! I just know that I love talking to him. I’m not waiting around for him to figure out that he is in love with me. I just hope he doesn’t figure it out before it’s too late and I find my next Prince Charming. But, if that happens, then I guess we weren’t supposed to be together afterall. I just really, really want it to end that way! But, life has a funny way of working itself out. I just need to be patient and see what happens!

Puerto Rico dream-cation

I fell in love in Puerto Rico. It was a pure, beautiful, pure love. The kind of love that never ends. The kind of love that makes one feel content. I fell in love with a dog. Oh my gosh, she was the cutest, most perfect little dog! She was a stray at the hotel. They were going to take her to a shelter, but I begged the hotel staff to keep her for one more night so I could figure out what to do with her. And, I actually found her a home! My cousin lives down in Puerto Rico, and he and his mom decided to take the pup. I wanted to bring her home with me, but that would just cost too much right now. And since I found her a happy home there, I can now just adopt an equally cute American doggy when the time is right. I don’t know if I’m ready for a dog. I don’t know if my social life is ready for me having a dog. If I had a dog, I’d never leave my house. I’d feel too guilty leaving my dog to go out at night. And, I’d feel guilty while at work and stuff.

The rest of the trip was amazing!! Veggie Girl and I had so much fun!! The whole trip was a whirlwind of sightseeing and being a tourist. We rented a car and drove all over the island and amused ourselves to no end. We did so much, but still couldn’t see everything! We didn’t really go out to bars or clubs, cause we were too exhausted by the end of the day. And, saving dogs wore us out as well. We became friends with a couple bar tenders/waiters at the hotel. One was married and kind of sketchy. He tried to hook up with us, until I called him out on being married. Then he threw the other guy under the bus. Um, yeah, just cause we’re talking to you and having fun doesn’t mean you’re going to get lucky. Sorry dudes. They made us delicious pina coladas, so we’re all good. We didn’t meet any Puerto Rican hotties. We weren’t really trying. I’m sure we could have, had we tried. But we were more interested in being tourists. And, my body couldn’t tell if I was on Puerto Rico time, or Los Angeles time, so I was just always tired. I can’t wait to go back though!!

surfing lawyer

Did I mention the lawyer I met in jail? Well, a few months ago, while at work visiting a client, I met a lawyer who was there visiting one of his clients. He is a federal defense attorney, which means he gets to represent bank robbers. He commented on my briefcase, and, being the nerdy girl that I am, I swooned. We chatted for a while about how he lived in the Virgin Islands after law school to practice law, cause when else would he be able to do that, and he asked me to lunch. I had just gotten serious with TB, so I declined. But, instead of straight declining, I said I was just too busy with finishing school and the Bar, and could I rain check it. He said sure. After TB and I broke up, I emailed him, but never heard back, as that email was like 2 months after meeting him. Can't blame a girl for trying, right? Anyway, last Wednesday he emailed me (though, I didn't get it til Thursday, which was awesome, cause it forced me to play "the game" and not respond right away) and said "Am I too late for lunch?" I'm assuming he was dating someone and that just ended. I said no, and we made plans to hang out after I get back from my trip. I'm kind of excited!! I mean, my new rule is only college educated dudes, and he's definitely that. I always said I would never date a lawyer, and watch, I'm probably going to end up marrying one now!

Speaking of TB, we've been talking a little lately. He needs a friend, and I'm trying to be there for him without becoming reattached. He and his girlfriend broke up, which makes me gloat a little. But, I feel bad for the guy too. I do love talking to him again though. I've missed him a little.

No word from MH3. What a d-bag!!

And with that all being said, I'm on my way to Puerto Rico! Hopefully I'll have some delicious stories for when I get back!! Until then, adios!

from perfect to done

It’s been a while since I’ve written. I have so much going on in my head that I don’t know where to begin. Ok, I’ll start with a couple weeks ago when I had date number 2 with MH3. (Not sure if I already explained this one: Mr. Hottie Hot Hot= MH3) So, it was a couple days before the BAR, so I didn’t want to do anything too crazy, but I was still excited to see him. He came to my apartment, and we decided we’d just be lowkey. I was watching LockUp when he came over, cause I’m addicted to shows about prison life. I’m addicted to all things serial killers, crime in general, and prison life. So, he watched that with me for a little bit, and then we decided to go to my complex hot tub. We changed, went down there, and proceeded to sweat it out in there for about an hour. The hot tub here is so hot! I understand that that is the point, but come on. When it’s hot outside, it doesn’t need to be boiling in the water. We ended up getting in this dumb debate about modesty versus shyness. And I love dumb debates. He kept trying to get my blood to boil by saying “you’re not substantiating your arguments.” Oh man, I was getting so worked up in a good way. I just love a good debate. I can’t stand when people just get loud to make their points, and refuse to participate in debates or discussions like that. But, if you can make your point and understand where I’m coming from, and have good banter, then I’m down! Ok, so that was pretty much it for date 2. Oh, except that our first kiss was on my balcony while looking at the full moon. *Sigh* So romantic!

That next week was the BAR. He didn’t call me the night before, so I was bummed thinking he’d forgotten. But, I obviously had bigger things to worry about. The first day of the exam went by. It sucked. It Girl and I were on our way to dinner that first night when I received a text from MH3 saying he hoped the test went well that day. I told him that I was happy he remembered. He said that of course he remembered. I told him I was excited for Thursday when the test would be over and we could celebrate together, cause that was our plan to hang out next. He said he was excited too. Day 2 of the test sucked more than Day 1. But, that night there was lots of texting with MH3, so that made up for it. Day 3 of the test brought the suckiness down a level, cause I didn’t think it was a hard day. Or, at least, it wasn’t as hard as the first 2. And, I got to see MH3, so I had that as my reward. I got home, and showered and changed. He came over. He brought me orange roses, which was so sweet!! And, they’re my favorite! He said he got them because red and pink were too obvious, and orange was different. That’s mainly the reason why I love them!! I gave him his toy car, which he loved. Oh! So, it turns out that after our first date, on his way home, he got into a car accident and totaled his car! His beautiful 1967 Camaro. Totaled. He said he didn’t tell me, cause he didn’t want me to worry or think it was my fault. I’m just glad he’s ok! But, I went out and bought him a Hot Wheels 1967 Camaro, since I couldn’t afford to replace the actual car. I’m too damn thoughtful at times. Ok, let me tell you why I’m over being thoughtful.

So, Sunday, I went to the fair with my friends. I invited him to go. First he said yes. Then the morning of he said he couldn’t because there was a “semi-emergency with his family.” But, he wouldn’t say what it was. I was bummed, but understood. Though, in the back of my mind, I wondered if it was another chick. Then, he texts me a while later and says he’s on his way to meet me. Ok. Cool. Guess the emergency is solved. So, he meets up, and we go to the fair: a couple girlfriends, my brother and his girlfriend. We were meeting The Adorables there. I was excited he was ready to meet all my friends. He was in a weird mood though. But, I chalked it up to nerves. We get to the fair and hang around a bit, and then decide to get some food. He’s texting with his brother the whole time, cause he wanted to hook his brother up with one of my friends. Any of my friends, really. I thought that was cool, as that was another sign that he really dug me. So, we’re sitting at dinner and I look over and see him sending a text to his brother about my brother’s girlfriend that was just rude and disrespectful to me and my brother. It just used some vulgar terms to describe her. I was livid!! I said to him “that is so disrespectful!” and got up and walked away, cause I was about to start crying, and didn’t want to start anything in front of him. My friends follow me. He just took off. He was a coward, and couldn’t handle anything, and just took off. I talked to my buddy who set us up cause I was pissed, and he was trying to calm me down some. He said MH3 immediately felt bad and knew he messed up and to give him time. Well, I can only be mean for so long before I start to feel too bad, so I texted him that if he wanted to meet up, he could, cause I was worried he wouldn’t know how to walk back to the house where his car was. He responded “Don’t contact me again.” I’m sorry, what? Am I the one who messed up? Am I the one who said inappropriate things. I told my buddy that I don’t think MH3 realizes he messed up, or he wouldn’t have said that. He said that MH3 was embarrassed, and that was how he was dealing with it, by just suppressing it. I get home that night, and not only had he deleted me on facebook, but he blocked me! Like I did something wrong!! I’m sorry, but he’s such a drama queen!! You’d think I cheated on him and stabbed his brother and stole his car. Maybe I didn’t handle the situation as best as I could, but I don’t think I did anything wrong per se. But, what it comes down to, is that I broke up with him. I left him at the fair. He’s the hottest guy I’ve ever dated, and I ditched him at the fair. It’s kind of funny. I’m sorry but you don’t disrespect me or my brother! And, you know, if he had talked to me, I would have apologized for my part in the drama, and allowed him to apologize, and we could have moved on. But, the coward wants to end up alone, then so be it! I’m going to Puerto Rico on Monday, and I don’t need him tying me down anyway. It’s going to be an amazing trip!! Let him think about how he messed up and wonder what I’m doing while I’m gone. It’s his loss, afterall!