shocking news

Sometimes you receive news that you knew was coming. It’s expected. Some of my closest friends got engaged. That wasn’t surprising news. I was expecting it. Don’t get me wrong, it was still exciting. But, it wasn’t necessarily surprising. Then, there is news that you aren’t expecting and knocks you on your ass for a few minutes. I received some news like that yesterday. Are you sitting down? I’m glad I was sitting down when I received it. Here it goes: TB knocked up his ugly girlfriend and is getting married next month. WHAT?!?! Yeah. His mom informed me of this. I am in shock. I seriously can’t even believe it. Less than 6 months ago he was talking about marrying me. Now he’s planning a wedding with someone else? I mean, I don’t want him back. Don’t get me wrong. That’s not why I’m shocked or anything. It’s just, wow. I guess they never heard of birth control. Maybe it was her evil plan to trap him. From what he’s told me about her, I think she’s evil and tacky and it wouldn’t surprise me. (I’m not bitter. These are words out of his own mouth from a few months ago when we were still talking.) But, man. Shocking!

In a way, the news kind of helped me in my own life. I went out with the nicest guy the other day. He was so sweet and nice. We had everything in common. But, I wasn’t sure that he was “exciting” or that there was a spark. But, he texted me that night saying he had fun. All weekend when I was sick, he kept checking on me and was concerned. He even looked up remedies for my ear infection online. Super sweet! But, I was still kind of holding out to see what else was out there. I’d been talking to this hilarious guy online and he suggested hanging out on Sunday. I never heard from him. A Marine I’d been flirting with and I made plans on Saturday night, but he kept pushing plans back later and later til I finally told him to eff off. He was super funny and sexy too. Real exciting. But, flakey. That’s what all these exciting guys have in common: they’re flakey. They mean well, I’m sure. But, I’m not a priority. This new guy is ready and wanting to make me a priority. Yet, I kept pushing him off. He wanted to hang out all weekend, but I kept pushing him off. But, for no real reason. He was really good looking. He has a job. He’s close with his family. So, why was I pushing him off? I decided to invite him to hang out with me and the It Couple, so maybe they could give me a read on him. He was totally fine with hanging out with my friends. I even warned him that I wouldn’t be looking cute cause I’m still sick. He said I needed to focus on myself and feeling better, rather than dressing up for him. Could he be more perfect?! He totally got along with It Couple. He was sweet and fun. After hanging out with them for a couple hours, we spent 3 hours talking. It’s just so easy to be around him. I’m so comfortable with him. He said that he likes me, and he doesn’t like to date more than 1 person at a time. I’m the same way. So, I decided that he’s the kind of guy who wouldn’t just ditch me for superficial reasons, like some of the other guys I’ve chosen in the past. He got home and deleted his online profile. So, I’ve decided to delete mine as well, and give this guy a shot. I could do a lot worse than focus on a really sweet, cute guy who goes out of his way to look up remedies for me online when I’m sick.