Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Life lessons

It’s funny sometimes when you’re taught a life lesson. I guess that there are lessons everywhere, and you just have to pick up on them. I met this guy online. He seemed really nice and open. He was funny and really fun to talk to. He was super into me. He wasn’t the cutest guy, but I really dug his personality. We made plans to meet on Saturday. He blew off his friends so he could hang out with me. I thought that was sweet. We met up and hung out for about 4 hours. We just talked and had fun. I was kind of on the fence though. I mean, he had some feminine qualities. I guess it was the way he said somethings, or certain mannerisms. I’m sure he’s not gay, cause he kept saying how attracted to me he was. He asked to kiss me after like 2 hours. I told him no. I just wasn’t feeling it. We kept talking. We hung out til about 8:45pm. He went home. But, before he left, he told me that he wanted to be exclusive, and I’d have to let him know on Sunday. Um, we just met and hung out for like 4 hours. And I was already on the fence. He became all weirdly clingy. Like, calling me “baby” in every text. The next day I was going to go to his area to hang out again, and he wrote “Yay, my baby is coming to see me!” Um, weird! I mean, I’m glad he was excited, but come on! I told him that it was weirding me out a little how he was acting, and I needed to get to know him more. He said he understood and didn’t need to rush into anything. I told him that was cool, and that we could hang out a different time. But, he went back into “baby” mode. I think I could have really liked him if he would have just let it happen naturally. I wish he wouldn’t have been so clingy. I think he would have grown on me. It was really just superficial reasons that I wasn’t liking him (i.e. that he was so whiney and clingy), and I think I could have adjusted. But, he pushed it and pushed me away. The life lesson is that I now see how I’ve done that in the past and it didn’t work out. You just have to let things happen naturally. And, you have to really pay attention to the other person and see how they’re acting and reacting. Look at that: I’m actually learning from past relationships and using them to help me move on. Go me.

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