weird...

A really weird thing just happened. It was my own fault really. I find myself in dumb situations, and instead of knowing how to get out of them, I kind of encourage them. So, I was texting with The Cop just now, and the subject of the Detective came up. He said he had a huge crush on her, but that she probably didn’t like him. I said he should make a move on her (what else am I supposed to say??). He said she wasn’t interested. I said that she thought of him like a brother, or at least that’s what she’s told me before. But, I said I’d ask her what she thought. (I don’t know why I said that either?!) So, I told her that he digs her. She’s so messed up over this other guy she just broke up with right now though that she can’t think beyond him. They still talk everyday and she took him out for his birthday a couple nights ago. She said she wanted to be friends, but then got mad when he said he’d been on a date. Of course she’d be mad. What girl wouldn’t? I think she’s saying she wants to be friends, cause she doesn’t know what else to do right now. So, then they talked yesterday and today. She is bummed cause it’s his family dinner tonight and he didn’t invite her. I kind of see why he wouldn’t. They’re not together anymore. That would be slightly weird. But, also being a girl, I would be upset too. So, she’s got that to focus on. She can’t think about other guys. She went on a date last week with a homicide detective who seems really, really cool. I actually really like the idea of him for her. I hope they date. He seems pretty cool. He’s closer to her age, and they dated a while ago when she was going through a messy divorce. He heard she was single again now and made a move. Manly. I dig that! She just told me that when her ex was at her house for his birthday she went through his phone and found a picture of a girl, so she took the camera card out of his phone!! She’s so crazy!! It’s really kind of amusing. I mean, I’ve looked through a guys phone before, but I’d never take the camera card! Then he knows you did. I guess he called and asked her if she did that and she denied it. It’s a good thing she’s a detective!!

So, anyway, I told her that the Cop digs her, and she seemed awkward too. Trying to convince me that he was just saying that, and he didn’t actually mean it. And that he still likes me. Um..no, he likes you. He just said exactly that. I know that we wouldn’t work out. But, it’s still a HUGE blow to the ego when a dude who used to be into you says he likes your friend and wants you to try to hook it up. But, I mean, whatever. Besides, he has access to lots of cops for me. So, maybe it’ll work out in my interest afterall. If we can be cool with each other and accept that even though we have a lot of fun together and it’s comfortable and easy to hang out, maybe we’re meant to be just friends. And maybe he’ll expose me to a whole new dating pool. Or, maybe it’s just weird. It could really go either way.

Right now I’m sitting in a public library trying to study for this dumb test. I’m lacking all motivation! I’m so easily distracted. It’s horrible. There’s a boy sitting on the other side of the table from me. He was here last weekend too. He left a little while ago and then came back and sat at my table. We keep awkwardly looking at each other and then looking away. I’m so horrible at this game!! I’m thinking maybe I’ll ask him to watch my stuff while I go make a phone call, cause at least that will get us talking. At first, I thought I’d ask him to watch my things while I use the restroom, but how UNSEXY is that?? A phone call is a much better idea. Or, I’ll just ignore him and continue studying. I guess that’s the responsible idea. Boring!!