The Beach Boys were wise

So, relationships are hard. Scratch that. Beginnings of relationships are hard. A lot of people love that beginning phase, where you are giddy about the person, and play the coy game and all that b.s. I’m the opposite. I prefer the middle of the relationship. The one where you just feel comfortable with the person and don’t question their motives or intent. I hate the guessing games in the middle. When can I call him first? When is it time to meet his friends? When can I start picking fights for absolutely no reason? I hate those questions! I think my problem is that I’m not good at the beginning part. I’m not good at dating more than one person or keeping it casual. I think the guys I choose are partly to blame. I tend to gravitate towards the guys who think like I do and are straight forward and blunt. But, while they say they appreciate that in me, I have to wonder if that’s true. Like, it’s Friday night and I’m alone. ATC has plans tonight with his friends and tomorrow night with his friends. I’m obviously not invited. I get that. It’s only been a week. Maybe it’s too soon for him to bring me into his circle of friends. But, at the same time, shouldn’t he be more excited to hang out with me than with his friends? Granted, tonight’s a birthday party and tomorrow is a wine tasting thing, so it’s not like he’s just hanging out at somebody’s house. But, I have to wonder if I would have been blown off if it were? He tells me he’s not interested in anyone else or in dating anyone else and wants to get to know me. That’s why we’re hanging out Sunday. I like Sundays, don’t get me wrong. Winding down the weekend, getting ready to start the new week. I love that. But, in the beginning, shouldn’t you want to hang out with the girl you’re dating on a real weekend night? Did the Beach Boys teach him nothing? You don’t leave your best girl home on a Saturday night. I think my real issue is with the fact that he met It Couple last Sunday. It was his idea. He said he’d come to Newport to hang out and that I should see if my friends wanted to meet. It’s kind of a double standard. But again, it’s only been a week. I wonder if maybe I tried dating other guys too, if that would help my attachment problem. I’m already digging on ATC a lot, so maybe I should counteract that by talking to other dudes. The problem is, I’ve never been a “date more than one guy at a time” kind of girl. It’s just not something that interests me. I don’t date just to date. I’d rather stay home or hang out with friends instead. The teacher emailed me the other day. He apologized for being busy for a few days. It was a cute email. I haven’t responded yet. I don’t know if I should. I mean, I like ATC. And he says he really digs me. But, actions speak louder than words. So, while it’s cute that he’s texting me while at this birthday party tonight, I’m still at home in my pjs on a Friday night. The Teacher is out of town for the weekend on a camping trip at Catalina. So that buys me a little time to figure it out. I’m seeing ATC on Sunday. He’s planned this thing for us to do, which is cute. He was going to just come down to Newport and we’d grab dinner with It Couple and just hang out. But, I think my pointing out the double standard made him feel bad, and he put some thought into something fun we could do, so I'd feel like I was still getting a weekend night. Or, maybe I’m reading too much into it. Either way, I’m still stoked on ATC and want to see what happens. I’m excited to see him Sunday. I can’t wait for Sunday. I just wish that I got three days with him again this week, like I did last week. Maybe that’s the problem. He spoiled me too early on. Guys, don’t false advertise with lots of together time if that’s a one-time-only/limited time offer kind of thing. Otherwise, a girl who is into you may consider expanding her dating options. Perhaps I need to work on my patience. I'm highly impatient. More of a Veruca Salt "I want it now!" kind of person. I guess I can and will work on that. Is it Sunday yet??

I also can’t help but wonder: did I jinx it by assigning a special ringtone? He demoted me by going from 3 dates in a week to 1. I don’t think my demoting him back to a general ringtone really has the same affect.