sleepless nights

I discovered another problem that I have. What is it about dating that makes one more keenly aware of every little problem or fault? The problem that I discovered most recently is that I lose the ability to sleep when I start dating a guy. I was exhausted last night and tried to go to bed around 10pm. Yet, it was another sleepless night full of tossing and turning. I couldn't stop thinking about ATC or how excited I was to see him today. Just one more night and then I’ll get to hang out with him. Yay! In the movies, the heroin drifts off to a peaceful night full of beautiful dreams of her male suitor and the wonderful time they’ll be having the following day. She wakes up refreshed and flawless. In my life, I sleep for maybe 2 hours, though I’m in bed for 10. I wake up with enough bags under my eyes for a 10 day vacation in Antarctica (read: big bags full of bulky clothes). Dark circles. My hair looks like an untamed Lion’s mane. And I’m more tired now than when I went to bed. Where were my blissful dreams? All I had were thoughts of: I need to sleep or I’m going to be too tired when I see him tomorrow; I need to sleep so I don’t look tired when I see him tomorrow; maybe if I don’t think about needing to sleep, I’ll be able to sleep, but damn, I’m still thinking about needing to sleep by telling myself not to think of sleep! D’oh! I've tried counting sheep or thinking about similarly colored vegetables (I read somewhere that if you try to list things like similarly colored vegetables or animals, you'll be able to sleep. That usually just sends me into stream of consciousness tirades: Orange. Oranges. Carrots. Bunnies like carrots. I like bunnies. I wish I had a bunny. I wonder if I'm allergic to bunnies? I'm allergic to cats. I love cats. I love Sunnbeam, my cat. I wonder what she's doing right now. I wonder if mom brushed Sunnbeam today. I should call mom tomorrow and ask how Sunnbeam is.) I've also tried meditating. Same problem as before happens. It doesn't take much to distract me. My mom suggested warm milk. That doesn't work either, and just makes me have to use the restroom in the middle of the night. No good. I think I'm just cursed with sleepless nights, and just have to come to terms with that. I guess that’s why the good Lord created concealer and coffee.