Constant change

It’s funny how quickly things can change. The newest Marine (hereinafter “Family Man”) and I decided to be just friends. He is just scared of moving on and isn’t ready. I’m not going to try to force anything. Plus, it’s early enough that I can cut off my feelings and be just friends with him. I’ve been talking to his ex a lot. She’s super cool, and we’re becoming really good friends. I honestly think I didn’t give her a chance and judged her without knowing her. She and I actually have a ton in common. So, I have decided to be just a friend of the family. Family Man was supposed to come to a USC game with me on Saturday, but there was a family emergency at home, so he ended up flaking. I texted Sister Wife to see if everything was ok, and she clued me in to the emergency. It was real. I felt bad, cause I understand that things come up, but I was still pretty bummed that he flaked. I would never tell him that, cause then how selfish am I? But, I was a little bummed.

I ended up meeting up with this other guy I’d been talking to. He has a ton of tattoos and is super hyper and awesome. He sends me a “song of the day” everyday. It’s everything from Metal to Ani DiFranco. I was really excited to hang out with him and see what could happen there. Within 5 minutes of me meeting him, he was telling me about his anxiety problems, and that he needs medication. He kept texting girl friends of his while with me, but explaining that they were just friends. Yeah, it’s just rude. And then he told me that he was having such bad luck with chicks that he once made out with a guy just to ensure that he wasn’t gay. That’s where I drew the line and lost my attraction. Don’t get me wrong: I have nothing wrong with people who are gay. Some of my closest friends are gay. I just think it’s strange that he would experiment to see if he was gay. I’m jealous enough of chicks, I would hate to have to be jealous of dudes now to. “Were you checking that guy out?!” Beyond that, he was telling me how he often goes to the Mac Counter to get his makeup done for various goth clubs and whatnot. I just think he’s not my type of guy. I love artsy guys. But, I prefer real manly men. I don’t want to worry that my boyfriend is going to steal my make-up. I also don’t want to date a guy who wears more make-up than me. There are just a few issues there. He and I could be friends, cause he was a really nice guy. But, I just don’t feel a love connection. And I went home and took down my online profile. I decided that I’m done with online dating for a while. I think it’s time to just see what happens naturally.

Speaking of, I went to hang out with Sister Wife and the kids yesterday. We went to the park and watched movies and had so much fun. When the eldest got home from school and saw me there, she came running over and gave me a huge hug. It was so cute! And then Family Guy got home from work. It was the first time I had seen him in his uniform. I actually forget that he’s a Marine at times, because he’s so not the “typical” Marine. He’s so mellow and sweet and nice. He tries to convince me that he’s actually tough and can make the Marines he trains cry. I just don’t see it. Anyway, he got home, and we all sat around talking for a while. And then Sister Wife went upstairs. And then Family Guy told me that he loves that I get along with everyone so well and that he thinks I really fit in with everyone. He then said he wants to see what happens with us as a couple. Sister Wife was telling me all day that he really likes me and that she wants us to be together. She said that most girls, including herself, never liked him for him, but used him as a fling, or as a way to get over another guy because he was so nice. But she said she could tell that I really like him. I thought that was funny, cause he seems to be everything I want in a man, so I find it hard to believe that other girls don’t feel the same way. I told both him and Sister Wife (at separate times) that we need to take it real slow, because I don’t want their girls to get attached and then it not work out. If it’s not going to work out, I’d rather we all just keep it as friends. It just doesn’t help that he and I both really like each other. Sigh.