pink Vespa

What is one supposed to do if one is approached online by a guy who may or may not be ok looking (like, there are only 2 pictures and you can’t really tell) and he may or may not be cool (like, you can’t tell if he’s funny or a know it all douchebag)? Does one answer his message and give him a chance and hope that he turns out to be cool? Or does one just hit “close”? I don’t know what to do. I texted the Comic to see his thoughts, since he’s big on online dating, but he said “go with your gut.” I told him that my gut says to fly to North Carolina, track down TB and convince him that he still loves me. So, obviously that’s bad advice. It turns out the Comic is just busy and doesn’t have time to analyze every little detail with me like he normally would. That means I’m left on my own with this decision. I suppose there’s no hurry in my deciding. I could put it off for a few days. But, the fact that I’m hesitant probably is my answer. I doubt he’s my soulmate if I’m hesitant to even talk to him. I’m talking to about 5 other guys online right now. There was no hesitation there. I have a date with one guy next week. And, I think a date with a second guy is in the works. The first guy seems pretty cool. He wants to hang out sometime next week. I told him I’m busy Wednesday and Thursday, but am good any other day. Wednesday I’m going to a shooting range with Ms. Adorable. And Thursday is the first official Girl’s Night with some of my girlfriends. There’s no way I’m canceling on my girlfriends for some random douchebag who I’ll probably never talk to again. I haven’t told TB that I have a date yet. I don’t think he’ll care. He says he doesn’t care that I date and he knows I’m going to. He doesn’t want to be with me, I get that. But, still, I feel weird telling him. I guess its cause I wouldn’t want to know if he was. I mean, I guess I’d have to eventually know if he was dating someone. But, if it was just a first date, I don’t think I’d want to know. It’d make me too sad. At least now it would. If I move on and find a nice guy, then I guess it’ll be different. I wonder if I’ll always think about him, and always think that it could have worked out? I wonder if I’ll always wish that it had worked out? Ms. Adorable tells me that when I meet the guy I’m supposed to be with that I’ll just know, and it’ll make me realize that I wasn’t supposed to be with any other guy. The thing is, that’s how I felt/still feel about TB. But, she says it’s still not the real thing, and I’ll realize it when it’s the right guy. Maybe my “just feel it” meter is broken.

In other news, today I saw the CUTEST thing!! I was driving home from work, and I saw this couple driving down the street. The dude was this biker guy on a Harley. The chick was this cute little girl in a purple sun dress riding alongside him on a pink Vespa. It was so cute!! They were just driving side by side down the street. Then, they were switching lanes, so he fell back and blocked the cars so she could safely get over in front. That’s what I want! A tough guy who’s still so thoughtful and sweet about the little things. It’s the things like that that really matters to me. I don’t care if a guy buys me presents. That stuff comes and goes, and is just easy. It’s the holding up traffic so you can be safe that is the sweet stuff. And, personally I think that I would be super cute on a purple Vespa alongside my motorcycle man.