Decisions

Decisions are hard. Sometimes the right answer is obvious, but often times it takes a little more soul searching. And by soul searching, I mean going to friends and asking them what to do, and letting them make the decision for me. Here’s an example of a recent easy decision: FireCop texted me about a week after we went out. Don’t get too excited. He texted me on a Thursday night at like 11pm. I think he was wasted. Can we say booty call? He told me to drive over to his house to hang out. Yeah, that decision was easy. I said no. I don’t care if he’s a hot fireman/cop. I’m not going to drive to his house at 11pm on a Thursday when he’s drunkenly texted me after showing me no attention all week. Easy decision. Ok, well, he was hot and a fireman/cop, so I guess it wasn’t that easy of a decision to make. But, I knew after about 5 seconds that it was the right decision. I told him if he really wanted to hang out to text me the next day. I never heard back from him. Shocker, I know! Here’s an example of a recent hard decision: I have a good buddy who is a Marine. He texted me today to tell me that he wants to set me up with a marine buddy of his who lives in San Diego. He told me he’d already talked to his buddy and had his buddy look me up on facebook and that the buddy wanted to meet me this weekend. I looked his buddy up on facebook too. He’s super hot. Like really, really hot. Like a month ago I would have been in my car driving down to San Diego already to meet him hot. But, it’s not a month ago, and here’s where the decision comes in. I really like New Marine. He is exactly what I’m looking for in a guy. He’s attentive and he appreciates things in me that a lot of guys don’t. (my randomness, my time-consuming-ness, etc.) He’s sweet and funny. But he’s far away. So the problem is: do I hold out for someone I don’t really know? I mean, I feel like we talk so much that I do know him. I don’t foresee it not going well when we meet in person. But it could. He’s supposed to come out in April. (Though I kind of wish he’d come out in May instead, cause I’ve been thinking about it, and it would be nice if he were here for graduation. But, on the off chance it doesn’t go well, it could ruin my graduation experience.) I just feel guilty talking to other guys right now. I really like New Marine. I don’t know if I like him enough to turn down the Marine when he gets back from Afghanistan, but it’s getting there. I know that I like him enough to turn down meeting new guys. I know he’s not meeting other girls. Or interested in meeting other girls. He’s told me as much. And yeah, maybe he’s just saying that, but I believe him. (I can picture certain friends rolling their eyes now, and getting ready to lecture me about how I have to learn how to play the field and that I can’t believe guys, but I do. And, I’m not good at playing the field. I’m a date 1 guy at a time kind of girl. I don’t think I can change that no matter how hard I try, or how much I want to. But, to be honest, I don’t really want to. I like the way I am.) I told my friend that it’s just too crazy right now with school, and that maybe I could meet his buddy later on down the road. I mean, it’s smart to keep back-ups just in case, right? Man that was a tough decision though. Did I mention how hot the guy in San Diego is??