cheesiness

Is it weird that I feel like I have a boyfriend, even though I’ve never actually met him? New Marine and I have been really getting to know each other. He emails me in the morning when he gets work so that I have a “good morning” email to wake up to. Then we email all day while he’s working. Then he texts me on his way home, and if I’m not at school, he’ll call me at night. On Saturdays we have a Skype date. It’s not like a standing thing. But last Saturday we had one, and this Saturday we’re going to have one. It’s almost like hanging out. Almost. Ok, it’s nothing like hanging out. But, it’s the closest we’re going to get. I’d love to go visit him. But, my bank account has other ideas. And he’s starting this class so he can’t come out until late April. He brought up coming out for my graduation, but that seems a little awkward for a first time meeting. “Hi. Nice to actually meet you. Now meet my entire family and all of my friends.” Awkward. I mean, if that’s how it has to be, then ok. Just seems like a prior meeting would be better. The whole situation seems weird. But it’s working pretty well. He’s super sweet, which throws me off a little. I tend to date jerks. But, New Marine is thoughtful and caring. I almost wonder if he’s too sweet and caring. But, then I remind myself that he’s a Marine, so he has to be tough too. And his boss wants him to go to Drill instructor school, so I guess he has to be really tough. It Girl thinks that he needs to show me his Drill Instructor side, so that I can see his toughness. Cause right now, I think I could walk all over him. That’s true. I do think that. I mean, I don’t think that in a bad way. I just know that I will hear from him on a daily basis. I know he’ll be there. I won’t abuse that. It’s kind of a refreshing change. Though, I almost don’t like the side of me that it’s bringing out. For example, the other night It Girl and I were studying for this hectic midterm we had. And at 7:30pm I pick up my phone and make a call. “Hey, I just wanted to call and say goodnight” I say to him. We chat for a minute and then I get back to studying. It Girl and I sit in silence for a couple minutes until I feel the elephant in the room needs to be addressed. “That was so cheesy” I say. “I KNOW!!” she exclaims immediately. I can tell she’s been holding it in, but that she wouldn’t tease me until I brought it up. “But, that’s what couples do! They want to talk to each other just to say goodnight!” she explains. I’ve made fun of her countless number of times for the very same reason: she’ll call It Boy just to say goodnight or something. It’s so cheesy, but I guess she’s right. And New Marine eats that stuff up. He loves anything that shows I’m thinking about him. Like, he loves it when I email his work email address before I go to bed, so he has an email waiting when he gets to work. I think he’s more of a girl than I am! Maybe It Girl is right: maybe I need to see his Drill Instructor side, cause at this point, I think I’m more of a man than he is. Ok, that’s not true. I do appreciate all of the attention. It’s what I want in a man. I like a dude who isn’t afraid to show that he likes me and wants to spend time talking to me and getting to know me and being there for me (well, maybe not literally being there, since he is in North Carolina, and not California. Though, he told me that if he goes to Drill Instructor school, he put in that he wants to be transferred to California and that that would be soon- next year, which he tried to convince me is soon. I suppose in a way it’s not that far away. I just like that he’s already thinking long term and trying to transfer out here to be closer). When I told him how stressed out I was about this midterm, he offered to help me study, though he didn’t know how he would accomplish that, but he would do whatever I needed. Like, that is the sweetest thing! I could get used to a nice guy treating me well. I think. Or I’ll abuse the power. Man, I may have issues.