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It is with heavy heart that I announce this latest news: I have a date next week. Ok, I’m not really sad about it. I mean, dates are fun. Right? I just wish that I didn’t have to date someone other than the Marine. But, I guess it’s time to move on. And maybe I’m supposed to be with this guy. Who knows. It’d be funny if I end up with him. Here’s why: it’s with Curly. Yes, the same Curly who I once blew off to have my first date with the Marine. And then we went out later and had possibly the most amazing first date I’ve ever had with a guy. Well, we’re hanging out next week. He emailed me tonight and said to plan on having dinner next week. In keeping with my new theme of playing “the game”, I’m going to respond to his email tomorrow and say that I’m available Monday or Wednesday. I could have responded right away. But, the new non-aggressive me is not going to do anything that I normally would, or anything which I am naturally inclined to do. The new me is living my own life, and doing my own thing, and will fit dudes in where I can. I just wish the Marine could see this, cause then I think he’d want to hang out still. Maybe. Who knows. My mom says I have to stop talking about him. She’s right. Thinking about him is only hurting me more. It’s funny, cause today before class, my old buddy Sharkie called me, cause he was at some Marine training school and ran into this other dude who he knew. And then he wanted to try to set me up with this other Reservist Marine. I talked to them for a while. Then, when I was done talking to them, ATC called. He was going home to grill some steaks for his buddy’s birthday. I guess that was the universe showing me that just because one dude doesn’t want to talk to me doesn’t mean lots of other people don’t. (Wait..I don’t think that came out right, but you understand what I’m saying. Lots of cool people want to talk to me.) Yesterday, one of my oldest friends contacted me out of the blue. That was awesome too! He wants me to come visit Austin. I want to go visit him in Austin. He and his girlfriend just got engaged, and I couldn’t be happier!! He’s an amazing guy, and his lady friend is a really sweet girl. They’re both these really cool, fun, extremely talented photographers. They met in photography school and then moved to Texas together. Good reason for me to go visit! I wish them both all the luck in the world!! Oh, and I got a forward today from a friend at the City Attorney’s office where I used to work, which basically said that if someone doesn’t call you back, let them go. If they don’t want to be in your life, let them go. It doesn’t make them a bad person, it just means their chapter in your life has closed. That forward was pretty perfectly timed I guess. I just have to let the Marine go. Even though I don’t want his chapter closed, it’s not up to me anymore. I will continue to keep him in my thoughts and prayers, but it’s time to let him go. That being said, if he were to call me, I’d talk to him. That being said, I’m still hoping and wishing and praying that he’ll call. I know he won’t. That’s why I’m moving on. Begrudgingly. Of course, moving on with Curly is nice, cause, in case you’ve forgotten from posts from the past, Curly is freaking hot!! And super nerdy and smart. And freaking hot!! I don’t think he’s the tough guy that I normally like. But, he’s freaking hot!! Notice a trend?