Bring on the rain

It's weird, but I really miss my Marine today. I've been pretty good all week at not being sad or missing him. But today, for someone reason, I can't stop thinking about him! Everything is reminding me of him or making me think of him. Maybe it's cause I had a dream about him last night, so he's just on my mind. Or maybe cause I've been bored in Bar Prep class today, and thinking of him is better than learning about Constitutional Law from a video lecture. Maybe it's a combination of both. I don't remember much about the dream last night, except that he was coming home today. I remember being really excited. I woke up excited. And then I reminded myself that he just left and won't be home til probably June. It's all good. This week flew by. I'm sure they all will. That's the good thing about being busy with school this semester. I'm not necessarily sad. Just can't stop thinking about him. I decided to actually do my hair and put on a lil make-up today to try to fee better. I haven't done that since he left, I realized. Being mopey is not going to do anyone any good. So, I'm going to have a good rest of the day and try to distract myself. Oh, I had some chocolate too, but getting fat definitely will not help me feel better. So, I'm going to make it an effort to not make myself feel better that way. Why is everything so good so bad for you?? Why can't drowning your sorrows in broccoli make you feel better? The universe is cruel!! I did have a lovely fruit salad this week which helped me feel better: blueberries, blackberries, strawberries, raspberries, grapes and cantaloupe. So good! But still, not quite the same as chocolate. Maybe I'll snap out of this funk when the rain starts. Rain always cheers me up, cause it's so pretty! And lying in bed while the rain falls is amazing. And, the gray of the clouds makes colors pop more. Bring on the rain!!