Suckiness

Ok. So. New Marine is not perfect. I’ve found his flaw. And I think it’s one that is fatal to the relationship. I think he has a drinking problem. He doesn’t drink often. Maybe once or twice a week. It doesn’t get in the way of his work or anything. But, when he does drink, he drinks to excess. And then his temper comes out. Last night we got in this huge fight, and I’m not exactly sure what it was over. But he kept saying he was tired of me treating him like shit, and that I crossed the line. Yeah, I don’t know what I did. I was at book club with my girlfriends. He acts like I was out drinking and dancing on a bar with a bunch of naked dudes. I was with my girlfriends, most of whom are married or seriously dating, having dinner and discussing a book. Wild times. He’s mad that I didn’t tell him ahead of time that I had plans last night. He texted me that he was on his way to his buddies place for an end of the week bbq. I responded that I guess that meant we wouldn’t be talking again. (I’d barely talked to him all week, cause he’s been busy with night missions and stuff in school. Totally understandable. But, I was hoping that when he got free time that he’d make some time for me.) He responded that he should be able to talk to me if his phone charged at his friend’s house. How are we going to talk when he’s drinking at his buddy’s place? Plus, I had plans. So, when he’d be able to get around to talking to me, I’d be out. And, I’m just pissed that he expects that he can get to me whenever it’s convenient for him and that I’ll be there. I’m not at his beck and call. So, I told him to not worry about it, cause I had plans and I’d catch him some other time. (Yeah, maybe a little passive aggressive) Apparently that’s where I crossed the line. I just didn’t want to talk to him while he’s drunk at his friends place. Well, that’s what happened anyway. He started texting me while I was out and was just telling me how I crossed the line, and how I was mean and how I went from nice to bitch in one text. Like, he just kept going off. I told him that I’m sorry I upset him, but that he bummed me out too. He just kept going off though, and wouldn’t stop. He said he’s a nice guy, and I told him that he is a great guy. I was trying to calm down the situation, but to no avail. And he kept saying “What do I know? I’m just some stupid Marine.” Obviously it was his own insecurities coming out. I’ve never even implied that he’s dumb. Plus, I like him because he’s a Marine, not despite it! He was just being mean, and I asked him to stop, and he wouldn’t. So I went to bed all sad and upset. And I’m really not sure why. I don’t know if I’ll talk to him again. I called him this morning to see if he wanted to talk. He didn’t answer. I guess it’s up to him to call me. I don’t know if his pride will let him. It just seems like a lot of drama over nothing. I sometimes wonder if job fulfillment is all I need in life. Maybe I’m not cut out for dating. It just doesn’t seem to go well for me. At least this one lasted a couple months.